seeing things clear, & I couldnt get better :D

YOHO:)

Lets start from thursday, stupidly cried from about a day, so suffocating tht i called up cheinhan to help me to set things clear in between me and Alan. And surprisingly stopped the tears after he told me everything himself. So My whining ended at 3pm right after the official break up.

Not forgetting, msges from my caring friends were oh-so-sweet. They didnt knw what happened to me,they just thought tht i was sick.

Controlled my mindset firmly and did alittle bit of maths, then Davin msg me about tuition. And i decided to clean up and go for tuition at 7pm.

It was already like 24 hours staying at home crying, looking fcuking retarded. I stepped out the lift, I was so shocked at every little normal things i see, -.- so lame i knw.

But listen, Everything is going on normally, everyone are carrying on with their lives as usual but the poor me, hiding at home cried until like tht doomsday was alr her, raghh -________- . I happen to learn one thing so quickly, "LIFE GOES ON NMW" , if you get what i mean ?

At the tuition, concentrating was difficult. but I guess i managed to pull it through. And brought cakes home for my siblings, but they thought i went crazy after the broke up.
Sis ask me, You okay mah? I stared at her angrily, She said: "Okay now u look prefectly fine to me." Cannot blame, my face is always tht black. LMAO.

Davin and friends, told me, its not the right time break down i knw. I only told them, its all going to get better and thts it. And found out tht I see friends as my sudden courage to be strong and forget everything.

Later tht night, chatting with my brother on the phone. I learned tht these relationship we had was weaker then weak. IF its not for him, our rs wont even lasted 3 months. He played a big part, so who say BGR only consist of 2 person? For our coward case, 3 person in one relationship. Amazing man ~ *shakehead slowly~

And so, I finally went to bed at 2am tht night. Wanting to go to school the next morning.







Friday,
Woke up, SHAT.. its alr 9am. No school for today. better get up and do some work!
But frankly, i didnt. I did totally nothing other then slacking around and spamming blogs. I admit tht at this age, i still spam blogs, but occasionally.. to cheer me up alil more ? :D Btw,i felt so happy after doing tht.

I knew, later on tht night, i have birthday celebration to attend. But somewhat its was quite harsh and not-so-fine for me to attend a super happy event after one sad story?

Leaving only 3 friends knew my problems. I left the rest of friends wondering. You knw, I just hate it when friends ask me whats wrong in a caring tone, when im knw im not alright. Therefore, I bring on my best behavior and attend Jacky's birthday celebration with no doubt!

However, I still see some eyes starring at me like they alr knew what happen. But good thing is they left no comments and I look super fine to them alright.

I sincerely did enjoy last night buffet at Sakura. It may started out acting happy but at then end of it, I am really happy. And you can say, Im still happy until now.

Meet yeechung under my block,then to busstop meet haoxiang and tang.
Bussed to Jason's place. Saw Jason jacky eunice matthew jiayi.
Then waited for Jeremy and co. Then took bus to Sakura.
We were the last batch to reached. SAW tht strking baby erni look super smart and expensive. He style added up to 2.1K! And he paid 30 bucks for veggies! V funny.

So last night !!!
37 peeps, ALL FRIENDS AND FRIENDLY. :D 11 tables! and buffet starts when the bill was paid @ 6.30. The corridors of the buffet tables were flooded mainly with Jacky's frewns. So MAKAN EAT AND JIA ~ until 7 plus, everyone was alr bloated until cannot!! And slacked awhile 8 pm, start seeing friends playing with the left overs, caming and picys snapping.

Played, 5-10-15-20, with scoops of ice creams instead of alcohol. blah blah blah.. our bunch un-embarrassingly nosie until 9 plus, waited for our good friend's arrival. wait for him to eat and stuff. then can cut cake. I never mention tht the "tua pai" was Koay xinde :) Nah, didnt blame him. 5 years friend leh..

Cutting cake broke my record,birthday song so loud until the whole swimming complex can hear. Then eat cake, cannot eat liao. everyone effing bloated. then went out of the restaurant and relax one corner for group photo.

HAPPY HAPPY NIGHT.
Not forgetting tht Olvl was still on for most of us.

Today, Goanna meet Sam to study history tonight!

even until now, cheer up msges kept coming in, I frankly speaking, i dont like seeing those. No offence. but .. My my my friends, DONT WORRY, dont treat me like a 3 yo. I WONT DIE just because of those tears seriously.. okay ? Tears are like necessities to ending ones relationship. We should take it practical ! yea ? :)

Im prefectly fine now. Very very honest.



My last words:



"I know how to carry on"


photos to be upload soon :)
CIAO ~

I wont let it recall.