Love is one big illusion as I try to forget.

But there are left in my head.

"You are the one who set it up.

Now you are the one to make it stop.

Im the one who feeling lost, right now. "
You want me to forget every little thing you said.

But there something left in my head.

But im not the girl, your heart is missing.
Thats you go away.. I know.

Haaaa... Seriously fake one smile and fake a laugh somehow make my unfulfilling days sightly better. Covering up the sorrows tht i shouldnt chose to pick up in the first place was painful. Now looking back.. i realise i was such a fool. Already knew I will be the one to get hurt, still i give myself into such a no point relationship. Love is seriously one big illusion, tht i have to face silently every single day. How i wish I did not start it all, but i wasnt the one who start it all. Putting blame aint a choice. But accepting the fact tht i've been fooled was tough. PHEW.. guess this is the way how life goes. Nvm..

I TRUST FATE!

if his mine, he will be. if he's not, then he wont be.
im super fine with anything tht goes with fate.
But still really, good things happen in a blink of an eye.

BLAH BLAH... Tutor finally came back from his NS. Now.. its seriously the time to make me stop playing and start mugging. Play finished. Sad finished. Wash up.. study!! JUST 11 MORE DAYS!.. i will get my freedom back. Im goanna start mugging on my stupid maths.

Just pray tht i wont go out and play tmr and the day after and after and the week after too... keep my finger cross tightly!

Cos after the stupid maths paper, i will get to visit my granny and a hair do. And a time out with my friends. Get jobs and start working. Then Thailand trip.. then work and play and work and play. By then its probably CHRISTMAS.. then everyone knws what is right after Christmas... NEW YEAR ! lol.. school reopen sucksss.

CIAO