Orientation

I really dont like the idea of Orientation, couldnt we just start school without havoc? Kovan to Sp everyday is like a challenge everyday, dont even need to mention about tht crazy timing tht i have to wake up every morning T.T really its a sad thing you knw.
And I went to orientation day one yesterday. D: it just sucked through out.

Lame fun, i rather skipped tht.

I realised how freaking big my school is.
I got 7 friends all gg to school at different timings and we dont see each other at all. -.-
Okay maybe Vanessa and Shaun.

Made new girly girl friends. Chris,Steph, Pearlyn, Kailing, Alicia and Yanshan. they're interesting people but i dont feel loving with them, like my old friends. :( And foundation years are just alot more then i knw. It sounds literally complicating!

They actually encourage us to buy a freaking digital slr, you knw , you knw! thts many $.
If i really buy tht assLR thing, macbook , school fees and TONS materials costs, I would have kick start my poly life digging my parents' precious money, not talking about a few hundreds, but freaking 5 k. 5 k .. 5k...!!! T.T Designs, are freaking expensive. I wish I would never had any passion for design, but i had it alright.

I dont like to ask alot from parents, every knows tht! I just feel so bad, keep on wondering, would i able to earn tht kind money tht my parents are making now, to pay them back as a filial daughter.

I finally get a reason to continue my one week one work day routine. The money I earn, my initial thought was to spend it on shopping, you knw poly candid dont wear uniforms needa head everyday. But now, i can forget , seriously forget about shopping and start, save up for the material cost. my one month salary = my material cost. So sick of tht.

And what would i do without my parents! Im appreciative and thankful for them, to sponsor me everything i need to get ready for this old year new school to me. But I really dont understand, other parents could be there for their sons and daughters all the time, visiting the school environment, getting new laptops and even do their registration for them. But i dont see my own parents around with me. They didnt even step into my new school yet, dont they needa at least see at what they are sponsoring tht much money for? Suddenly I remembered, i cried when i see my parents walking into my sec sch for my graduation ceremony. No one knws, how much i want their freaking time. *cake teng teng, dont start the tap again!

And today's orientation day 2, I skipped it. Lame games, i rather be at home slping. HA.
Tmr, have to go back to school to spend money on materials, its like you buy the books before your school year starts. And meeting all my teachers, or some call them lecturers. And mor eand more briefing at the auditorium, you can really get sleepy inside.

And lastly, I really dont knw how to mend up to my old friends, like to say good farewell to them and stuff like tht. I cannot deny, but there are some friends, I just dont wanna be so close to anymore for no particular reasons, I just dont want them to hate me in the end, for not spending time with them. Everyone knows, not spending time = no more thick friendships. I am a very committed friend throughout all these years, I guess this time round, no. Sorry. But i have plently things to commit to. I just knw, no one loves me like u guys use to! :)'ll missya vm.

And relationships wise, I wished for no one until my 18th birthday arrives. No time to handle emotional craps from my family. I think my family, will be all tht im committing to, learned tht from Junjie. He's a very very filial son. very very..

Gtg mall and meet my darling. See,I very committed.HAHA.

&& Until you're ready, i'll be here.
Or knock me off, Im alrdy use to be treated like tht.
Oh Jeez, hopeless romantic.
Adios everyone.