life is never easy! oh yes ?!
OH YES !
Frankly, this week, i screwed up almost everything, spending 14 hours in the office everyday earning only 30 bucks/day. this week got my pay very demoralised!
I lost basically the most important criteria, my attitude.
Singaporeans! wtf.
dont wanna mention man.
I was so tired,so screwed and so going crazy. Tht i decided to quit ytd. but before i could officially confess, i made Shihui cry. its like wtf ?
I cried on field and used 3 hours to packed it up. then return to office, holding the doors of OR telling myself tht im not goanna cry infront of anyone. but.. so embarrassed to say limbu failed.
cry cannot solve a single thing , i knw. But damn it, how can girl control tears as and when she wants?!
90 mins of talk inside wilfred's room. I knw everyone is super pissed with me, saying to quit.
I knw, i like to fullfill my ambition eagerly. I dont like to go out field, to sell charity tickets, facing singaporeans' bullshit, when im not even a singaporean, but im helping sell charity tickets to save those less fortunates! Im a proud to be a paid-student-volunteer. Its my allowance and my results!
Olvl over i knw, im still facing test and more exams everyday work, because im keen to learn about the real working life/society?! understand? thts why i stayed to become a leader, and its not just learning leadership skills! more then u knw. whole hell lot more, okay!
but, I said quit, and call daddy(crying), papa! im tired, i dont wanna do this anymore. daddy, asked why, and hold for a moment. and said, if really tired, then come home. leaving me so touched. AWW. lols.
Wilfred told the story of himself. and showed me one of his pinky, using a thumb to point at the tip of his pinky. He said: ur persistence and tolerance, is it just like tht?
TO me, Im like wtf. correct man?!
if my persistence and tolerance is just like tht, then might as well, admit tht u had already given up on ur life.
you need to pay medical bills for ur parents and feed ur kids and like ur kids to school and start a business and buy car and buy property and enjoy life in the future . what is all this?! not burden, not stress, not love. ITS MONEY tht u need.
And limited tolerance and persistence, wont get u over all these kindda challenges in life man.
IN TEAM XCEL, IM LEARNING ABOUT REALITY.
how hard, how shitty some sgreans can get, how tired and difficult the work is. ITs reality tht you and I have to learn to accept. Only, i decided to use this 5 months to learn and accept.
XCEL- Xcel Create Elite Leaders.
and all this leaders kenna hardcore scoldings and screaming from our 3 managers, u knw!
All leaders learn things the hard way to learn and lead.
JUICE - Join Us In Creating Excitement.
Of cos exciting with 3 fcuking funny managers and good friends around.
Winners never quit, quitters never win.
Winner or quitter?
no matter how hard, and how difficult and tired this is, im goanna stay unless they sack me.
Its not all about sales. its about the poor people tht im helping okay! its about the heart and determination.
PS: i still like interior design, im still living up to my never dying dreams/ambitions.
(sing)I HAVE A DREAM, but first, i needa learn to lead a team, to analysis markets, to make good communicating skills blah blah blah and make this the correct and clever decision!
: i learn from this team, these managers and this working life.
Hardest work on earth, selling charity tickets, challenging the heart and soul of typical singaporeans everyday. If i get this through, nothing even worst is goanna bring me down.
Im goanna overcome this this this!! man!
say yes! thank you, God loves u and bless u.
say no! THANK YOU FOR NOT HELPING, becareful of ur steps.
I've made my choice to stay for a longer period of time.
I cannot leave shihui to fight alone!
Tmr will be better! of cos better, tmr's OFF DAY ! finally !
one thing good, i can never stop laughing this line. thanks to mole!
Good night.
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