cause i miss you whenever you're not around.

Im being super random...

I finished all my mid year papers. And .. i knw.. i flunk every single one of them. Guess Im not motivated enough to drill myself in studies. I dont want to do last min work, Im aware of this. But.. but... but .. ;x Nothing could get in my way, Im not giving myself any excuse either.

I guess life maybe real shitty right now all the way till my last o paper. I do bother about hun. I do feel insecure about him. I cant find a group to study with nor a place to study in. My friends got many many party, I cannot dont attend. My mother didnt motivate me in the correct way. OR AM I JUST LAZY ?

I guess, I will only be super awake when I see my mid year results. HATE IT.


After I knw what Joanne did, maybe I should do the same thing ?
- i cant, i dont want and i cant do it.


Im putting on alot of weight and my face gone worst.
What stress am I carrying ? i also dont knw. I am damn relax about O cos im still lazy. Gosh.. the insecurity inside me, i dont knw how to tell u guys.

He may be the cause.
Should I redo what joanne did?
-it maybe a relief? *scratch head.


Thinking too much, sometimes I really wish tht I could not think tht much. But I cant!! T.T
I really need a psychologist.

Or a aladine, granting all my dreams and wishes. Then i dont even have to bother!
Yea .. dream on..

Could a girl, cope with both studies and rs in a goal? My important year.. I dont wish to waste it.

I knw i knw i knw, when everyone nags at me about these particular things, i tot of it. i knw i shouldnt, i knw i should, I knw i have to. I knw i knw i knw.. siallllllllllllllllllll.

To whom I still feel guilty about its still you, bna la. I couldnt held myself from looking back.

I miss Joanna too luh, I wonder how have her new job been like?

Zp chalet this Saturday. what can i get for him ?! BIG HEADACHE!!

MY CHINESE !!! how how how how how how how how how... very nervous!

I 've also learned a new unglam word "wahbiang". V unglam, i dont like. but somewhat hooked on to it. so hear me saying, dont mind me man.


Somethings are meant to be confidential. If i dont state it here, obviously means tht i dont not wish any other outsiders to knw. so pls pls pls stop ur unnecessary tags. I'll thank you.


whats for my birthday plans? grr. rather dont celebrate? hiyayaee.

havent slept well for weeks. eye bags grows puffy.

IM BECOMING REAL UGLY.


Masking...
CIAO.