SQUASH YELLOW is
- CLOSED -

yup, its closed for good.
no advertising = no costumer
fault tht on our laziness.

things happened like this and like tht.
idk what else i can still say.

some problems between me and him.
we stop meeting each other ever since i throw the two big bags of clothes to his house.
cartoon left, and i had no one to refer to with problems about him.
just like tht, and i guess his feelings has alr faded one big patch for sure ):

well, idk.
whenever i think of him at work or at home.
i will sit beside the river or in my bed.
silently, recaping everything we did.
always wondering wheres him, how is he?

i used to wait for him to online after i reached home from work.
no matter how tired i get, i die die will wait.
and blog everyday, wishing tht he would come and read "my everyday"

but until today, i lesser blog, lesser come online to wait for him.
and suddenly, he also seldom online alr.

last few days, i cant explain my emotions.
i just scold and scold and scold him in msn.
i don knw for what fuck ?
i will die die find things to scold him.
or maybe im alil angry, alil upset and alil crazy,
whenever we nearly lost contact and thts why i spare my anger on him ?

im so into MOMO-ing.
ever since i became a 3rd party.
until now, even if im not a 3rd party. im still momo-ing.
i guess i should say " ever since i fallen for him?"

i dont knw why i love you.
u were everything tht i wanted so much and so badly.
i cant stop it from coming.
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and to another guy in mind now:
i cant accept anymore love tht you give.
its just no use. i rather be good friends with you.
much happier dont u think so?
its just, you dont get the love tht i wanted so much.
if u can get the love i want, i dont mind giving u a chance.
but can you ?

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bottom line of my day:
have been trying so hard to love someone else, other then tht idoit.
have been hanging out with with someone else, other then tht idiot.
have been trying to think of somesone else, other then tht idiot.
no matter wht, tht feeling is always aint right with someone else, unless is tht idiot.
why ?